Well... i think is a time for me to brief about my college career..^^
This is my 2nd semester in foundation...
I think it's a tough time for me...
I starting confuse..
Confuse about my lesson..
Confuse about my major..
Confuse about my friends..
Confuse about....

I'm not a hardworking guy..
This already a truth..
But i trying to change it..
It sound not bad..rite??
Point is....hard to do...
Every time when i was seeing my friends doing their work..
I quite disappointed to myself..
Why?? Why i cant do as what they are doing...
As the result.. i am rushing my assignments in the last moment..
Rush assignment wont achieve a good result..
Yes...it's truth.... My marks can prove it....
After that.. i k=only know how to regret for myself...
What a dammit idiot!!!!!

Majority... a hard choice for me...
Either AD or illust...i dunno
Haizzzz..
Hope somebody can brighten a right way for me...
Dun ask what is interested me..
I dunno how to answer you..
SO.. Oh My GOD!!!!
Idiot again....
Well........i think i nd to flip a coin...==''
God will solve for me...Haiz...

Friends...i starting dunno how to facing my friends...
not just college..
but also secondary...
Maybe i too care about something..
make myself always miss about something...
i dunno...
n hope i can find out the ans...
When my friends sucking in their problems...
i dunno what can i do...
N i realize that..all ppl is getting to their ways..
But how bout me??
still standing at the same position...
I dunno how to express the feeling...
For secondary friends..
i already speechless...
how come ahr??
when gather with all of u...
i getting dunno what to say...
i was just sitting n thr...
n try to observe everyone of u...
What i am proud to u guys is...
U all r still the same...
but...i found tat i already changed

SOrry about de late....
i no mean to be late to thr...
well...
sorry...

This year....
i was fall in love..
but also broke my heart...
Actually i dunno how to say bout tat...
Maybe i do the worst thing to u...
I think i always cheating myself...
maybe i am the one who cant drop it down..
lolz........
well.........
u can be better..
u can find a better than me..
i hope u can live better than be4..
I will be pray for de God...
wish u all the best...

n i..wont be a good man anymore..TT
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PRESSURE n FXXK

It's been a long time for me didn't updating my blog...
A quick word for it... BORED!!!!!!!!

I bored to the things happened around me...
I bored to always rushing the assignments...
I bored to the time is not enough for me...
I bored...
so bored...
and....
cant find a right way to let me express it!!!!!!!
FXXK!!!!
(I think only this word can express what my feeling now...)

Day after day,
the pressure getting heavier and heavier!!!!!!
It forced me until unbreath-able...

The problems are still there...
I cant slove it!!!!!!!!
I cant ignore it!!!!!!!!!!
I cant!!!!
I cant!!!!!!!!
I cant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FXXK!!!!!!!!!!

oh man!!
i am going crazy ady!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Assignments.....
Personal.....
Family..........
Friendship......
......
Everything not in its rite place....

If can...
cry maybe is a expression for me...
but....why i cant do it???
I try to shout out during the driving....
I try to cry out during the raining...
I try to scold out during the disturbing...
but...
no use...
cant make it....
pressure!
Pressure!!!!!!!!!
PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My heart is bleeding...
My mind is complicating....
My brain is storming...
My body is paining...
pain that made by the hurt U gave me...
U follow the movement of air..
no shape...
no breathing...
no movement...
but...
u hurt me is the truth..

I lack of energetic...
No spirit..
Act like a zombie...






this family..
no more future...
just waiting for the empty battery moment...
and just suddenly shut down with a sound of ''xiu''..
and what also finished...
ya..
just waiting for the moment...
pls..
come faster..........
better than living under the stress...
such as walking inside a dark-view underground..
pressuring ourselves....


i meet u at the rite moment...
it was my firstly thought...
but...
time by time...
it telling me...
not yet the timing...
i realli dunno what r u thinking...
hope i can look through u..
i try to stop myself...
but my feeling pushing me to u..
when u treat better and better..
i will happy and u r the twilight of mine...
but..
when u ignoring me...
u r te darkest i meet..
bring me to the unstoppable black hole...
i dunno why...
hope u can tell me the ans....
why?
n how?
n what??
i was tired...
tired to fac this kind of problems...
thew problems that is no ans...
why?

Friends

These few days, i met alot of secondary friends.
I dunno how to express the feel when i meeting with them.
Warm??? Funny??? Excited???

Last friday, i went back to meet for Wen Jun, Jun Han and Z.Y...
hahahaha~~
thr how long been us never gather for blowing water...
After graduated, we seldom time to hang out such like this...
Even contact is also getting less and less and less..
We went for mutiara's Big Yi Ma to have our lunch...
Man's Talk...so high!!! hahaha~~
After meal, nd some exercise of course!!!
We went snooker...
heheheXD having a lot of fun lar~~~
i never play snooker before....
but luckily still boleh tahan....
I got 4th lar!!! Last place!!!!
Because of Jun Han..haix...TT
let ZY became 3rd..heheheXD
But we just know laughing only when playing the snooker..
cause..we joking to each other.....
what a nice day after a nightmare of thursday...

I thnk i will never forget what have been at last thursday...
I made a stupid mistake i never been....
I pevvice for it...
I know it's my fault...
No excuse...

And last Saturday, celebration for 90th years-old---Chong Hwa!!!!
Every society have their own showroom within the class..
neither dance society!!! heheheXD
Nobody knows i will going back with ZY...
cause...we planned at last friday only...
Well...hope that give u guys suprise enuf..
but... i dun think so....TT

However...
I was happy that i could met both of u guys...
Never changed...
Still happy and enjoyable such as before...
Compared to others society showroom...
Urs are the best!! i think.....
hahaha
Even the activities or performances were also interested many ppl....
As an audiance...i gave my best applause to u guys....
As a past of u guys.....i was so proud to u guys...
i hope u all can be better at the following day...
U guys realli did a good job!!!

I wonder if i still at form 6...
i may share a part of the happiness u guys have...
but...
i made the choice to leave....
so...
i cant...
and...
i dun eager for it anymore...
Cause....
stay at the past will miss the road in front of u...

And some ppl said i was changed...
not just out-looking,
but also pesonality...
hahahah
she said me became quite as well...
erm.....
everyone got their self-problem...
neither me...
sooo....
dun try to ask me for why..
cause... it's my private at all...
And...
everyone will getiing changes when getting in a new environment...
so...
i learnt how to be quite...
i learnt how to be ignore myself...
i learnt how to be away from myself...
i learnt how to be not as the past as myself...
and i know....
you will ask me why...
but my answer will be...
thz...
i think it good for me...
however...
i will still be a happy guy...
now just showing on the face...
but through the heart and mind...
and....
i will do it as u will do it also..
rite???
^^ hope u know i am talking with u...
hahaha...

Friends can be seperate...
but cant be break away..

I never meet u not equal as i forget u...

I dunno what i talking about...

but...

hope u know...



friends....

I'm YOUR NO.1 fan~

8.00am--->wake up!!!
but.....failed....
8.20am---->wake up again!!!!
dunno why....failed again...
8.45am---->wake up n open de radio!!!!
still FAILED!!!!!!!!!!!(wth!!!)
my spirit still keeping low....
9.00am---->WAKE UP at last....
....
Quickly changed clothes n going to fetch D.D..
Although with a map on my hand....
But...still will lost at somewhr...
At last...
the activity was started....
we couldnt catch up de time...
TOTALLY FAILED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Apologize for my failure....
I hope that i wont give u too much problem...

However...
next stop....SUNWAY PYRAMID!!!!!
SHOGUN!!!!!!!!!!! (50% discount neh)
After about 2hours waiting....
finally it's our reservation no. been called...
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
With a lot of sushi...tepanyaki...icecream..sashimi....
My stomach was fulled even couldnt made a breathe~~
whoo~~~
n some activity must to do after a BIG BIG meal
------play ground!!!
haha~~ the time quite soonly passed!!!!
it ady running to 4pm...

N i was made appoitment with my dude...
Not others but Vin n Z.Y..
We met at BIG BIG BOWL...
Within a cup of tea...
We talked alot...
the feel made me so comfortable when talking with them...
Not just funny but also warm...
JUst like before the time we passed 2gether...
Full of joke...
No whether how....
Friends are always friends..
n dudes are always be as dudes..
also BRothers are always----as my part of body...

UNtil bout 6.45pm..
the time to say goodbye...
Next plan...Steamboat..
but...
WTF...
All ppl are not in (s)he position...
lack of contact made de plan stucked...
It quite annoyed me...
i hate thing as this part...
Cant we make a same sense before doing somethings??
Well...although it really made me bored...
but...luckily plan going by it's right way....
n i dint take it in my mind..
Even not angry to u---nel...
Dun be worry bout tat...
As i said... thing always got its percentage of changes..

BUt....
dunno is the bored made me moody or what...
My mouth really heavily and lazy to open...
SO...
Apologize to u guys for my moody..
but...
it seem like u guys still have a nice time...
it make me quite thz u to u---Vin...
No one will known me as u...
hahaha~~
hope i wont regret to say it...

And also for u........
As ur NO.1 and B.F...
apologize is not enuf for me to u...
Thz for trying to understand me
N make me laghing all the ways....
I think u r the one who i most treasure...
Wat can i do for u?? ( i think no nd)
Cause...
i will try my best to treat u as good as i can...
And i wont regret for any decision i made for u...

A tired but meaning day that i miss alot...
With the freedom of feel
N with the best of friends..

Time pass for no waiting..

Time...
as a guardian...
it grows me up inch by inch...

Time...
as a thief...
it steals my future to become past tense...

Time...
as a killer...
it killed me when my career come to the end...

Time...
as a best friend...
it beside me when i'm sad or happy...

Time...
as a healer...
it heals my injured with day by day...

WHatever time is...
its cant be stop...
it pass for no waiting...

When u think u can catch up of it...
Its just a refraction...
Time always ahead of us...

It cant be stop..
but can be treasure it..

It can be ur friends...
ur healer..
when u know how to treasure it...

It can be ur enemy too...
as a killer or thief...
when u ignore it...

"Toilet" a nice performance i nvr met before...
It quite different to others performance i saw...
Tintan performed a great show too..
His emotions was interesting n funny...
'' Squeeze ur father's boob''
I was stunned..shocked..n unbelieveable when she said it out...
Wooooo!!~~~


After that....
of course was going to enjoy a tea-time...
We went for One Stop station at the 1st...
--I fetched all ppl with twice times...
Quite shienz lar....==''
But the restaurant going to close at 1130pm..
So... decide to change place!! 2nd round---->> Umma Rani...
With Elaine n Caysin... haha~~
Blowed water as last time...
BUt...I cant concentrate it as usual lar..



HaizzzZZ...
Why u nd to let me know???
I 'm not u...
Cant make a decision as a rocket...==''
Actually i was also shocked when u told me...
However...
Dun try to annoy me anymore..pls...
My heart cant be separate into 2..Ok???
Of course i'm not meaning tat i am in relationship...
Also..i am not hate or dun like or wat...
But...i ald had a admirer in my heart...


Until here...
U!! Dun try find out who is the she...@.@


... Fate is a thing tat fooling all the ppl around HIM... ...
I dunno why...
I dunno how...
I dunno wat to do...
I dunno whr are u...
I dunno whr am i...
I dunno wat u thinking of..
I dunno wat i nd...
I dunno wat is ur ans...
I dunno wat i gonna to do after tat...
Queation can be unstoppable...
But Ans always just onli 1...

Still cant forget U...why???

After a week...
I learnt a thing...
COllege = Assignment!!
Hahaha~~ Finally i know that why ppl said...
TOA=The One Academy=Thousand Of Assignments...
It's really extremely suit for the title ahr...==''
When i finally finished my 1st assignment..
Thr are 2 assignments waiting for me...

Well...however u hate the assignment u still nd to do it...
Isnt it???
So...what i nd to do is----- ''PRAY FOR GOD''!!!!

Actually thr not no reasons for all of these assignments...
Compare to others...
At here u nd to work harder..
But...u can learn more.. get more... until u master it!!

As my principal said----
''U no nd to trust us what can we give u or teach u,
Just trust to urself, What can u learnt from us''
''Ur success not gave by us but U, it by urself''

Let talk bout my lesson....
actually i quite proud of myself...
Even when SPM, me also not as hardworking as now...
-Not sleeping in the class..
-Keep writting notes...
-Do hw be4 the week of deadline...
-Pay attendtion to lecturer even it's history class!!!

Although i not the most hardworking among the class...
But...hahaha...
i shocked my classmates at all...
What they said was
--''How can u be so hardworking such like this ahr??''
--''Because U r inde high, rite??''
Wooooooow~~~
Well....what can i say is...
I try to make a different from now...

''Action speak louder than words''...^^

Oh~Ya~ Congrat to u guys that it's dy finished MYE...
hahaha~~
it's should be a longest n hardest n shienz-est period...
isnt it??
hahaha~~ However~ i trusted that u all done ur best in it...
Dun be worry but be proud of urself...
Give urself a present n try to relax...

Erm...Wish u all the best~!!

HOpe that meet u guys soonly as possible..haha
^^